Sick ; fever and flu

I've never felt so much pain like this, before.

I feel so hopeless in every effort I've made to relieve the pain with no one to moan to, no one to show that I need some help.

*of course since im at my work place.

Surprisingly, for a moment in grief pain, I thought about death.. not that I was afraid of it, but instead I hoped for it. geez... how weird can i be really..

*tapi, palis2 juga lah... jauhkan balak. Hehe.

I still feel so much pain in my stomach precisely. I guess I'll call mom this evening. Gila men sakit. Mmmm..