It's time to let go...

I heard a voice whispering to my ears.. "It's time to open your heart.."

Maybe it's just the right time to move on and give chance to other people.. I love you too much Anyee... But, maybe you're just a dream and will stay always as a dream that can't be true...

These past few months, I've met lots and lots of people... Good and bad, beautiful and not.. I can't open my heart to them even how hard they tried.. not because I don't want to open it.. But, I don't have the key for my own heart... It's with you... I guess I should not wait for the key to return back to me... It's time to throw this old lock and build a new one.. I love you Anyee, but you let go... It's time to let go now... I will give chance to another person after this...

Life...

There is no guarantee that this life is easy...

Dear Diary,

So, here we are.. so many people have asked me about so many things about my relationship. I dont really ahve anything to say to them. OF course Im not gonna say that it was fake. BUt then, i was suprised to know that there been some people who actually want to be with me. So, I guess this pretending actually dig the truth out. anyway, I gotta go now. need to go to Ranau again. haissshhh.....

Today...

Dear Diary,

Today was a very funny day for me... I was on the net and one of my old friend from my former school asked me to play "love game" with her.. So, we changed our relationship status on facebook to make people to believe that it was actually true. lol. It tickles my heart seriously cause this so-called girlfriend of mine was actually one grumpy girl I've ever seen in this miserable life of mine. lol. But, There is something in mind right now, honest. Since that we are couple, I think  I should make the best out of it even it is just a "love game" for both of us.

 I think I'll start to bring her out to dine and spend much quality time together. Plus, Im kinda lonely these past few days. So, it's a good thing to do for now. But, anyhow, there is something else roaming around inside my head. It was the "idea/stand" that I said last time that maybe I should not play this "Love Game" again. It might hurt someone someday. I'm pretty sure it's not gonna be me. I'm afraid it's my friend, Far, the girl which I'm playing this game with. I just hope that she wouldn't take it serious when I always bring her out after this.

Lost my temper...

dear diary, i was really mad and angry. and I  just lost my temper. I was mad towards my little bro and sis. I hit them cause it feels like they have been rude. But I accidentally hit my sister's left eye. I regretted it. I love both my little and bro. love them a lot. the way i act last night just made me not a very good brother to  them.

                        **well that's me on the Dusun (Fruits Garden). Hehehe.**

So, I have a lot of things to say. my other Journal has reached 870 followers. I guess, I need to keep writing from now on. Ermm... For now, I'd like to get as many followers here on this blog so that I'll write here as much as I would on my other Journal.

So yeah... this month is the month for fruits!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And Im sooooo eating all kind of fruits! lol. at the Dusun, I ate 3 Durians, 2 Tarap, tons of Rambutan and Langsat and lots and lots more! FUh! IM soooooooooooo satisfied! lol....

Anyway, last few days my laptop motherboard is burnt down! How amazing! Don't u think it's awesome?! FUh! I went to my friend's house who knows about all this computing stuff and he said I'll be needing to pay maybe 700++ if I'd like to repair my laptop. Well... Well.. Well... I'm totally f*cked Up! and yeah.. I've been learning on how to run a "Business" these days. my dad's is teaching me everything. so I could say, Im pretty busy nowadays. life life life... so tiring but beautiful... =)

and oh yea... I like this song so much. Hope anyone who come to cross this blog would love it as much as I do. =)

I didn't update my blog for a long time. How I miss laying my fingers on my computer keyboards and start typing whatever cross my heart and mind. Well, I wish I would have enough time like before to update my blog. =) Well, this past few days were really busy days for me as my sister keep asking me to accompany her with her Beauty Queen Competition 2010. Glad that everything has finished. The sad thing is she didn't win the competition. =( but it's okay thou.. She would always be the most prettiest girl each of our family members ever known. =) Well, I have become active in going to church lately. Hopefully, I'll would be consistent attending the church - doing my responsible as a christian. and I know I go to church not just out of responsibility, it's also because I really wanted to meet my father in heaven and worship him. =) Well, for non-believers who come might have came across this blog - Don't disrespect believers by arguing over our religion conviction all right? I have met lots of people who sent mails into my inbox and tried to show their intelligence arguing about the matter. yeah. I guess so much for now. I'll update again next time. Have a nice day to all readers. =)