My Father's Death Anniversary...

 I woke up early today. I lay awake in the dark and think about the past. I could not find my wristwatch to see what time is it now. Surely, it is still dawn; the cloud is still dark and brown. I know today is my father’s one year of death anniversary. I gazed outside the closed plain and transparent glass windows for a moment, capturing a glimpse at every small creation I could barely see; the butterflies look as if they are flying around merrily, the bees are busy entering the flowers’ petals to collect sweets and honey and the birds are singing joyfully ready to start their day. “The living room would not be a fine spot to be at today.” I think to myself.

                   
                   Sometimes, I reflect to myself that we, human beings will know how to value something only when that something is already gone. I had lost a lot of precious things in my life and I regretted it. It is useless to think of “If only.. If only I could change.. If only I could turn back time.. If only I had shown my appreciation towards him/her.. If only...” because what is gone will forever gone. Moment will only pass once and that’s it. I decided that I would never say that phrase again. I want to learn to appreciate my mom who is still with me now, my two big beautiful sisters, my older and younger brothers and my dearly treasured friends who never ran away from me even I always ran away from them. You could never predict what would come about next, so start appreciating everything while you can.