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Welcome to a Blog which provides you with Useful Information, Jokes/Video Clips, and Online Dairy. I'm also currently working to write a novel. you can read some of it if you're interested.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Chapter 1: The Runaway...

14 February, 1999, Sabah. – I’m scared. We’ve got to get out from this house, otherwise there will be blood paint on this house walls; and I can see bruises on mum’s face and whole body. Mum’s bruises and wounds seem severe as I look up from beneath my sister fluffy pink bed, hiding. That man outside walking around yelling at all of us. I can hear him waving his knife violently against the bedroom’s door, forcing to open the locked door. I descend my body deeper into my sister bed. BOOM! My 15 years old, oldest sister, Atie jumps out from the windows of the bedroom from the 1st floor and hits the ground. She runs as fast as she can to seek for help from the nearest neighbours. It’s too late. The door opened.

          SMACK! That man hits mum on the shoulder with his left fist and she topples to the floor. My older brother who is 13 years old coming from the corner of the bedroom seizes that man right hand that holds a knife and begs for pardon. Kuya cries so bad and begs the man to release his knife, afraid that it might slash mum. The man let go the knife, waves his hand and pushes Kuya against the wall. He takes that act from Kuya as an act of defiance, which mean more hits. Kuya regains poster holding back his tears, as the berserk man screams “You wanna fight me?” while hitting hard Kuya’s face and body several times. I freeze under the bed refusing to move a single muscle.
 
        I can see my 11 years old sister, Etil crying hard while assisting my mum to be on her feet again. Without dropping a single tear, mum with strength inside her looks at that man’s devil eyes. I pray hard, "Please God", I say to myself, "just let us get out from this house". Kuya is trying his best to keep away that man from getting closer to mum. That man murmurs something and another blow pushed Kuya’s head against the tile counter top. I can hear people stomping down the staircase up towards this 1st floor bedroom. Just the second I see my aunt’s face in front the bedroom’s door, I run out from my hiding place towards my sister and mum. Somehow I breathe a sigh of relief. My sister, Atie also there is standing just right besides my aunt, crying really hard. Atie shouts painfully “Papa, please... That’s enough”. Aunt Mercilyn hugs Papa from the back. With a soft tone aunt Mercylin tries to calm down Papa and brings him outside the room.

         My sister Etil quickly grabs mum’s right hand and leads her out from Atie’s bedroom. I follow as I hold mum’s left hand. I tremble with great fear when I look at that man’s eyes; the eye of a killer, the eye of no-sympathy. It was once an eye of a loving father; a very caring and funny husband to my mum. He seems to have lost his soul and no longer reminds of himself.

I'm Sorry... But I don't want to be just like you...

11:04pm Friday, 21 May, 2010.

So, finally it ended that my blog is “the shoulder” that I lean to at times I feel like crying. I am so burden... Its 2:44a now and I still can't sleep. After what happened at 11:04pm, which is hours ago, I really can't close my eyes and rest down my body. It’s a time I will not forget. A time my heart bleed, a time my brain worried. I trembled down to earth thinking of what have I said and done hours ago. I’m so sorry and I didn’t mean it. In fact, I never meant to do it. Now I don't know to whom should I say and cry my heart out. It seems to be only this blog could understand me. It seems like this blog is the only person I would really say about what I really do feel...
 
I know I need this blog. I feel so miserable. Bad like I’ve never been bad before. Bad like I'm should buried alive.. I'm sorry God. I'm so sorry... I never meant to bring this over the limit. I just crossed the boundary. I'm so sorry. I couldn’t say anything more. I even couldn’t express myself now. I'm just so sorry. I'm been bad, really bad...
 
Now God.. I pray for a heartening from you... I know I don't deserve anything from you... I don't.... I'm a rock-headed and a sick-hearted type of person. I am a bad man. God, if I have the chance, please stop this stream that’s non-stop falling down from my eyes to my cheeks... I can't take it any longer... after years of struggling not to cry finally I cried. Its the second time since 8 years ago. Its the second time... Maybe, I'm just too fragile... I need to be stronger after this. I won't cry again, I promised to myself. But for now God, I know even I cannot stop this stream of tears... It’s too painful... Too painful that I couldn’t hide and hold back my tears. I'm sorry... I'm just sorry...

I won't forget this day like I never forget those other important days of my life... too much happening... It is too much for me to comprehend... I'm sorry.... I'm just so sorry......................It’s 3:05am.. I don't know what should I do now... I'm lost...

Friday, April 30, 2010

A Friendship...

I never even met that person before. But, that one person succeeded to make a different.. lol. *I'm not being emotional! Hahaha. No I'm not.. lol.. I'm just being myself... This is my blog so I'm gonna say anything I want! anything that my heart felt... Pain, happiness, bitterness and everything..... Hmmpphh.. you touched me you know... lol. But do not be afraid. I'm stronger inside me because of my past and I'll smile cause I know, I deserve happiness in my life. I'm responsible for my own happiness.. It was nice talking to you... Hey... I never said, I fall for you.. lol... It is just, I appreciate you so much as someone. who I call a friend... After what we shared, after the secret you told me and after my I told mine, I think, that's more than enough to call you as someone who is precious in my life.. A person I consider as my friend. (^_^)

"Friendship doesn't need time, all it needs are a honest eye, a helpful hand, an understanding mind, and a caring heart. If those exist in between you, then you are good friends no matter how short was the time for you both to get to know each other."


This song is for you dear friend...



Here is 4 websites which enable people to download music for free legally. 
    Hey.. The websites may not satisfy you.. But, at least you have some! Be Thankful.. Hehehe. =P


    (@-@) Til Next Time...

    Wednesday, April 28, 2010

    Today...
    I came to know quite few friends. But there this one friend that I would never forget

    Monday, April 26, 2010

    MySpace...

    Wiew, @_@
    Few hours ago, I was totally bored and didn't know what to do. So, I opened my Myspace account and start exploring on how to use Myspace. Actually, I just opened my myspace few months ago and I haven't checked my Myspace account for quite a long time until just now. I don't really know how to use Myspace before, that's why! Hehehe.. But hey! Now I know already! Hehehehe.. I browsed for some applications on Myspace and added them to my profile. Hey, does anyone know how to apply Music application to your very own profile? I still don't know how.. I tried just now, but I need to buy the "song" or a "playlist" 1st before I can play it on my profile.. Does anyone know any mp3 player application which is "free" to use?? Hehehehe.. Please tell me if you know something about it. Drop me comments.

    Here is a quick video from YouTube which I think is quite funny for me.. I mean, it is funny! Enjoy! =D



    My friend tell me some info about search engines which are quite interesting.. These Search Engines show images when you browse for something. Hope this little info could help you to have a better internet-browsing experience.. Hehehe.

    (^_^) Till next time...

    Wednesday, April 21, 2010

    Here some videos to brighten up your day...

    I'm laughing.. And I can't stop laughing.. OMG, Help me! This videos are just overwhelmingly hilarious! I'm going nuts.. Hahaha..

    Here some videos to brighten up your day.





    Thursday, April 1, 2010

    My Bloody April Fool..

     6:00pm, Center Point- My hand-phone rings. I received a call from my mom. I am supposed to get into the cinema hall by now, because the movie Clash of Titans is starting.
    "Maybe, I should pick my mom call first, who knows it might be important". So pick I up the phone.
    "John, where are you?!! Go down now and meet me at McDonald!" My mom spoke in panic.

    The way my mom says it fright me a bit and I'm afraid something bad has happened but I try to stay in calm. Quickly, I leave the cinema hall at Growball and run swiftly to the Center Point basement and meet my mom. We were still standing in the middle of people when she said,
    "Give me your phone. My phone is dead!" So I give it to her.
    "Atie, your dad involved in a car accident!" My mom say it to my oldest sister on the phone. I am a bit stunt when she said that my dad got a car accident. "But he is fine and not injured. fetch him up now okay?" My mom continued.
    My mom say so, because luckily my sister, Atie went to Ranau this morning. After few minutes my sister called back and told us that she found my dad standing near his smashed black Kancil with the brand new Viva at the middle of the road. They also told us that they heading to the nearest police station to report the accident. We feel a bit relief after we listen to what my sister told us. So, we went back home afterward.

    My dad say to my mom while they were on the phone just now. "So this is my April Fool Surprise..."