Relaxing..

Eating bread while sipping on hot milo during rainy day is just one of the best feelings.. :)

It's a peaceful and tranquil evening to step outside from the daily threadmill and listen to those smooth and sound voices I might have misheard and take a good look at those subtle things.

And just for records.. maybe someone would want to check out on this picture as well I found on google.. try to google-map it.

Something is wrong somewhere..

Something is seriously wrong...

I dont know and I cant tell which part..but something is just very wrong. It's like, even you havent seen or heard anything so sure yet, but you just have that instinct that tells something is just not right and you've got to be prepared for any close possibilities..

Ya know... it's like a natural animal instinct.

*well.. we all are animals..* lols

Anyway, this joke wont last long anyway. It'll end fast. And oooh i am soooo damn sure... hahaa..

And just another random complaint... I feel rather numb and unhappy. Feel appreciated yet rejected. Those twisted feelings.. oh geez..

*my life is nothing but complains nowadays..*

Still I am okay.. Still standing straight armored with the hardest steel. Weaponed with self-esteemed and experience..

And just a little bit more that all these things end and life begins..

Terkenal

Susah juga kalau terkenal and kena sayang ni.. biarpun benda paling kecil terjadi ma ko, semuaaaa orang terus serius bercerita pasal tu kejadian. Lucu juga lah. Buli tahan.

So ni si Bosku ni. Marah2 pasal sudu nasi. Tu sudu nasi kena cuci time ramai pelanggan.. jadi,  pelanggan pun tidak dapat ambik nasi sebab teda sudu dia. Odoi gea... si Bosku ni...marah lah ma tu pekerja yg masi budak sampai main hentak2 dinding lagi. Padahal salah tu Manager sebab dia yg suruh.

Time kena marah tu budak, sa di sebelah. Kasian betul tu budak sa tingu. Panik trus si geng mencuci sudu dia.. lol. Kasian juga tu.. Naaa... apa lagi... sa tunjuk hero lah trus... hahahaa... tarus sa bilang... "Sir.. bukan salah dia sir. I am the one who told him to wash it.."

Si Bosku terus tingu sa, pastu keluar dan jalan pi center point. Lol. Sembahyang kali dia sana surau center point macam besa.. amik ketenangan urang bilang..

Haiyo. Habis trus suma org bercerita pasal tu kejadian. Ada yg cakap sa kena marah utk 1st time. Ada lagi yg sa dengar.. "kasian oh si John. 1st time sa nampak bos kasih marah dia.." loooooool odoi naa...

Kebaruan ba durang. Susah durang ma picaya sebab tau lah... sa datang lewat petang pun tia pernah kena tegur. Awal balik pun ok. Dtg lambat pun ok. Cuti lagi. Lol.. kana sayang lah kunun.. kakakaa..

Sampai sekarang heboh itu crita.. loool. Tapi banyak versi punya cerita lah... hahaa.. Ni lah kan... manusia.. mesti ada tokok tambah tolak darab bahagi. Klu cerita tersebar.. kompom tia sama dgn cerita original. Cetak rompak. Hahahaa..

Oh by the way.. ari ni sa dtg lewat lagi... hohohoo.. bukan suka2 kio... tapi semalam sa balik lewat. Survey tempat sewa kedai sampai jam 1 subuh.. ;)

Jadi.. pengajaran dia tentang topik ari ni... jangan lah kena sayang... lol.

A little Crack...

I nooded down and whispered monologuely.. "shit man..."

It was a plaintive tone..

But it's okay John.. things will get better. Chin up honey! As time passes by, you'll realize it was never a big deal. What was yesterday, leave in it in the past. You will be shocked when one day in  distance future, you look back again and find that all the blue and woeful memories are the things that will make you smile and those that were joyful and sweet memories will make you cry.

Never regret of what you have done and tried. For you are of what you did.

I think I might need a long rest today. Plus all my activities were cancelled. So, I think it's a good oppoturnity to relax and rest. Be strong. Be brave John...

A decision I ought to do now.

I have been thinking a lot..

Damn true they say that darkness is a place that'd make you to ponder and yourself is your biggest enemy that time.

I am writting this as the night has ended and a new day started yet the day is still as dark as yesterday. I will end what I have started. And I will end it good as much as how I started it.

It would require a lot.. so much that I have to give in half of what I have now as an exchange to my decision. Consequences would be big and I believe unchangeable which would change a huge deal in most of things in my life.

Chances will slip away but I also believe that chances are something that always pass by everyday.. there would be some to grab and hold on to someday.. I believe.. someday..

It broke my heart

Oh. It broke my heart...

Sa baru ja mesyuarat tadi.. After the meeting I was suppose to do something tapi kena cancel... oh... dia sudah janji mo buat tu transfer after the meeting but tiba2 kena cancel. It broke my heart. I feel dissapointed juga lah..

Gara2 sa lewat ja? But I thought we were supposed to do the transfer after the meeting. Bukan sebelum meeting. Kalau ya pun. He should have told me awal2 yang it is before and not after the meeting.

Mimang confirm dia merajuk just because I was late. But seriously? He should have known better. Haaish.. It is ok lah.. so kena postponed entah bila. Sa macam datang malas sudah.

I dont know.. sometimes I think.. am I being too sensitive juga? Why should I feel so anyway kan? Pelik oh. Yay. Gosh. It's so weird. Mmmm... Maybe I am being too sensitive juga. Dia pun sensitive also. Haiyo.. but what to expect? Its ok lah.. haiyaa.. Let it go John.. it is time to just leave it behind.. Just leave it alone. It'll be fine.