So Innocent..

Ughhh....

When I read again what my friends ever said/commented about me few years ago, I feel like.. ' Now I understand what they meant back then!' Hahahahaha.. Those were really the days when I was soooo innocent. lol. I am absolutely not giving compliment to own self rather it is true.. I actually took their words with  inaccurate understanding last time... I still remember at the age of 17yo when My friend Arnold said this to me.. "You are bisexual right John?" Everyone was expecting that I would feel shocked after Arnold said that to me. But I wasn't taken aback. Instead I simply laughed because I didn't understand the meaning of it *pretending that I did* lol hahahaha... Now I know whats the meaning of bisexual..  Hahahaha...

And yesterday I browsed and scrolled down to some of my pictures comments on facebook. And I found few comments which is a bit of verbal-sexual-harassment.  But I responded to it with a big "LOL" because I just didn't get what they were trying to tell me. hahahahah.. Funny!! Seriously? I was actually that innocent?? Geez... @_@

Another event was few years ago when I was in Kuala Penyu staying at my friend's house for a week during Chinese New Year Celebration... and I was arranged to sleep in a room with my friend's younger brother who is a year younger than me. So we became very closed since we slept in the same room for 7nights/days. I kept talking about having girlfriend and saying how beautiful the girls in the picture on his desktop computer to which he replied "I don't find any of them attractive in any ways." And he ever gave me this hint "What if a guy is not really into girls." There was also this time when he hugged me so tight while he was in a deep sleep and I acted cool because I felt it was just like "friends" hugging. and Now... I think after examining to everything he had ever said and done, I think I get it. Those were apparently sexual gestures... haha.. And obviously he was trying to tell me he was gay..  *_* My goodness.. I was so lame I couldn't understand these simple hints people are saying about themselves. Hahahahaha.. That guy was cute by the way.Tall indeed and a Chinese..

But ya know.. Trying to remember those priceless moments.. I actually miss the 'innocent version' of me. hhhmmm... Yes, I really do.. Those days when I fell in love with a girl named Arantxa and wrote it in a diary, let her read and being so shy about it...  Hahaha.. So funny... And also those days when I like to make sexual jokes for fun but when someone actually mean it, I still take it as a prank. Maybe I was a freak last time because I always make jokes about sex and stuff but I never took it for real even when it was meant to be..

For example - after college, when I was at the age of 18. When I was about to go out of my friend's car, my so-called friend suddenly grabbed my hands and wanted to kiss me, but I refused while laughing because I thought it was a joke and to me - it was so wrong.. That person must have hated me so much back then.. Lol...

I bet everyone else ever had it too.. Being so innocent or maybe extra lame like me. Mine was when everyone the same as mine was already big enough to understand all these while I was stil in a world where everything to me were games, jokes and friends.. I don't even know what is dating all about. How to date a person and how it is done. Hahaha.. still, those were priceless moments..

But now, this innocent guy has grown up into teenager, that is able to comprehend stimuli around him and give a proper respond to it as a young adult. Hehehehe.. well, that's just life is all about - to grow up, live and just move on till we sag out. Hahahahaha.. Till next time. See ya!!!

Tooth Extraction..

Quote : The looks decide whos getting together, the personality decides who stays together.

MsSososorry 

 

 Hehehe..

As true as it sounded,yeah I just got my tooth to nicely extracted from my mouth. Ouch. So I went to this one Clinic. It's called Dr Patricia here near Inanam. She's marvelous. She talks and chuckles making u to feel like she's your another version of your Old Aunt. and I didnt even know that she had extracted my tooth for good! Ahh! I love her! I almost died from fear this afternoon. Hohohooo...
Its not really that painful oh kann.... I thought sakit berabis sudah tadi.. hehehehe...

Bikin malu ja I asked the receptionist tadi "sakit kah tu ar.." Lol... Aishemennn.... I should have acted like Im not afraid at all.. with my pale face looking.. lol...

So yeah, thats what happened to me today and literally I have awn even beautiful teeth now.. Heheheheh.. Sow proud of myself that I actually went to the clinic now.. hohohoo...

Video of this week: I love this song soo much....!! cant stop listening to it.. hehehe.. Please love it toooo!! Lol... until next time! :)

Ulasan Belanjawan 2013 Pakatan Rakyat dan debat Parlimen

Please watch. I would like to vote for PKR next time!!

The way they debate and present the facts really differs. Saya bukannya peminat mana2 parti politik ni.. Tapi lepas sa dengar cara debat and fakta fakta yang dibentangkan. Saya rasa sa sudah tau siapa yang lebih layak memerintah Rakyat malaysia. Sa akan undi PKR lepas ni. palan2 kamu urang yang baca blog sa ni dengar pasal ni debat dorang.. banyak lagi tu di sana youtube. kalau kamu urang dengar pasal tu laporan Ekonomi Pulau Pinang selepas berada dalam pemerintahan PKR, mimang awesome lah. Semasa pemerintahan persekutuan iaitu UMNO. Pulau pinang menanggung hutang sebanyak ratusan juta, iaitu RM600++ juta dalam anggaran kasar. ertinya Kerajaan Negeri Pulau Pinang time tu mengalami deficit semasa pemerintahan UMNO/KErajaan Persekutuan. So, lepas tu PKR menang undi dan Kerajaan Negeri menjadi milik PKR. PKR terpaksa memerintah dengan keadaan ekonomi negeri Pulau Pinang yang mengalami deficit RM600++ juta lebih. Di bawah pemrintahan PKR, Pulau Pinang dapat mengurangkan deficit RM600++ juta kepada RM 30++ juta dalam tempoh beberapa tahun. Selepas beberapa tahun seterusnya, baru lah hutang langsai dan Kerajaan Negeri mempunyai Lebihan iaitu sebanyak RM40++ juta. Dengan adanya lebihan barulah Kejaraan Negeri dapat beri kepada Rakyat Pulau Pinang. Projek Perumahan diadakan untuk rakyat miskin diadakan, micro-kredit untuk golongan peniaga kecil india, melayu dan cina (kebanyakan orang melayu mendapat kelebihan). Semua ini adalah LAPORAN EKONOMI Pulau Pinang yang terbaru... Kalau kamu mau tau.. LAPORAN tu ertinya FAKTA yang disahkan benar oleh AUDIT negara (yang bahagian kira2 duit ni).. Naaa....

Saya tulis di blog ni bukannya sa ni penyokong tegar PKR. CUma kan.... Kalau kita fikir balik... aiyoo.. kita sudah dibentangkan dengan fakta bahawa PKR boleh memerintah.. kenapa mau tutup mata lagi... Kenapa takut untuk berubah?? aishemen.... Cuba kamu sendiri kaji belanjawan 2013 UMNO. Pastu dengar ulasan belanjawan 2013 yang lebih realistik daripada PKR. Pastu kan.. Cuba check setiap satu wakil PKR untuk setiap bahagian.. Cara dorang berdebat.. macam mana dorang jawab soalan and bentangkan fakta.. MImang nampak semuanya berpelajaran. Setiap yang dibentangkan adalah wajar dengan fakta yang tepat. cara berhujah pun sangat konfiden dan tenang.. hohoho.. untuk maklumat yang lebih tepat dan terperinci nanti kamu search lah di google ar... sebab sa ni pun pandai salah sikit2. lol.. hohoho...

About Me..

About me? You wanna know? Why do you even care? Geez...

Forgot to bring my wallet

Dear Diary,m

Make the Best Out of Life...

Dear Diary,

So every day whenever I am going to sleep late at night, I usually think of what I have had accomplished that particular day... I just want to appreciate whatever things I've had done that day and be proud of it.. It is now part of all the pieces of the memories in life that I will definitely going to remember and enjoy thinking when I grow old in the future...

Just appreciate of the time you have now not and make the best of out it.. Time passes only once in your lifetime... Now it is 11:36pm,Sunday 19th of August 2012. This time only passes once in my life.. It'll never gonna comeback and if I didnt make the best out of it. I will lose it just like that...

So I just want to create as many sweet memories with the people I am with now. Not the people who aren't here with me nor the people I yet to have in the future.

I know there are people out there who are afraid of spending the time with the wrong person or wasted their money with the wrong guy/girl. But, for me.. it all doesnt matter. All I want is I am happy and have good memories created.. I am happy being me. Being a guy who make the best out of everything... I dont wanna grow old and regrets for doing the things I wanted to do when I was capable of doing it.. 

I've seen quite bunches of people who only know how to live in the moment when their are old enough... They only start to go out and hang out with their friends when they have grown up.. I dont wanna be like that.. I want to appreciate the things when I have the chance... People say.. "Masa muda hargailah masa muda.. Jangan sudah berumur baru mo terfikir mo macam mana rasa kehidupan orang muda.. Nanti sudah tua, berumur dan ada anak... Arrr... time tu acting macam orang ada anak lah..."

I dont want to sit down on a couch one day and keep thinking to myself of all the things I should have done when I had the chance to... So, stop thinking about whether you are doing those things with the wrong people or not.. Maybe some of the things are meant to be done with these strangers in your life... So take the chance... Enjoy life to the fullest at the same time fear God as Someone who will take care and watch over you... Trust me.. Live in the moment whether it is with the wrong person and just go with it.. Trust me.. One day... You'll look back and smile to all these sweet memories you have... =)

Who are you..??

Dear Diary,

You know what... Banyak berlaku dua tiga hari ni.. Kadang2 sa rasa lucu juga lah.. Sebab kejadian teruk macam ni macam jadi rutin sudah pla.. sampai sa pun boleh ketawa kadang2. hahaha..

Anyway kan.. Sa tidur di rumah kakak saya yang satu lagi semalam atas beberapa sebab.. hahaha.. sama2 dengan kakak sulung sa..Sa berabis tinguk Olympic and main internet sekali sampai rumah kakak sa sampai subuuuuuuuh.. hehehehe..

Jadi kan... esoknya tu (pagi ni lah) sa balik rumah abang sa lah... nasib baik teda mama sa... Jadi kan.. sekali sa balik, sa makan and terus tertidur... Naaaaa..... Ini lah bah yang sa mau cerita ni.... sebab kan... Time sa tidur tu kan... sa ada termimpi sesuatu bah... sa termimpi seseorang yang sa tidak boleh lupa sampaaaaaaaaailah sekarang.... Sa mimpi sa dalam satu tempat yang sudah moden tapi hancur sudah tempat tu mungkin sebab peperangan lah kunun2nya... *cewaaah.. macam movie pulaaaakk kannnn... kakakka.. bikin panas.. hahaha.. Jadi, teruskan cerita mimpi sa... Time tu banyak orang macam tinggal di khem, mungkin sebab mengelak peperangan kali lah.. Jadi, sa pun ada di sana.. Banyak remaja time tu sana...

Jadi kan... Time askar limpas tempat sana, kami ramai2 bertapuk di dalam satu lubang bah... gelap lah dan sedalam 100meter begitu... Jadi kan...Lepas askar sudah limpas, semua orang pun naik balik termasuk sa lah... sa tunggu dulu semua orang naik.. Time sa mo mula naik sudah... sa ternampak satu urang.... yang belum keluar dari lubang tu... sa nampak dia macam teda tenaga... Jadi, sa suruh dia naik tapi dia diam ja.. Jadi, sa nampak dia... macam jadi lembut hati sa.. jadi, dengan segala tenaga yang ada sa pun angkat lah dia.. Gendong lah kunun2nya.. kakakakaka... Sa angkat bahu dan kepala pakai tangan satu and satu lagi tangan sa angkat dua2 kaki dia.. macam gendong baby di dadah lah kunun2nyaa... Cewaaaaaaahh!! Hhahahaa... 

Jadi kan...time sa angkat.. astagaa... punya lah ringan... tu orang kan... putih... sangat bersih kulit dia tidak macam remaja lain time tu sebab yang lain macam hitam2 sudah sikit sebab kena matahari dan time perang lagi.. Dia putih tapi macam bedebu2 kulit dia macam comot lah sebab keadaan sekeliling kan... Dia pakai singlet putih yang lusu sikit ja lah..and kurus2 sikit... rambut dia lurus dan pendek di belakang tapi rambut depan jatuh sampai ke kening dia yang hitam dan tebal... rambut dia warna perang2 and coklat sikit.. macam tu warna Mocha.. bibir dia pink tapi tidak lah halus sebab macam kena habuk2 and debu2 sekeliling..

Time sa angkat dia kan.. macam dia tiada tenaga bah... kesian.. tapi setiap kali sa tingu dia kan.. terus macam tenang betul oh hati sa... Macam sa rasa hidup sa lengkap sudah ni biarrpun situasi time tu teruk.. Jadi, lepas sa angkat dia sampai atas... Sa kasih turun dia dan dia jalan sendiri sudah lah.. Kami terus pi tempat satu khemah ni... Kami pun tidur sama2... sa peluk dia kan.... hati sa tenang betul oh.. and dia pun peluk sa macam dia tia mau kasih lepas ni...

ok... cerita ni panjang sikit bah.. jadi sa kasih pindikkan! Hahaha.. selama beberapa hari kami sama2 ja... makan and semua benda kami buat sama2... dia suka ikut2 sa... tapi dia pendiam ni... Sampai lah beberapa hari pas tu, situasi perang ok sikit sudah... Jadi, kami angkat barang mo pindah...

Pas dia angkat barang2 dia... Sa suruh dia jalan depan dulu nanti sa ikut... Time tu sa yakin sa akan jumpa dia balik... Sebab sa bercadang ikut dari belakang sambil angkat barang... Dia pun jalan depan lah tapi dia tidak tau sa tidak ikut dia dari belakang...

Pastu, sa meneloh pi belakang mau amik barang sa... Then sa cepat2 jalan mau cari dia di depan..... Tapi sa tidak jumpa dia sudah..........~ Sa terus hilang arah macam ibu hilang anaknya.. Sa cuma mau jumpa dia balik bah tu..

Sa... macam kelam kabut time tu sebab sa tidak dapat jumpa dia ni... terus sa check telefon sa.... Sa mau call dia sebab sa teringat hari tu sa ada save number telefon dia... tapi sa tidak dapat cari telefon sa... sa kehilangan telefon and number dia sekali.....

mau nya sa nangis... sebab.... sa tidak pernah tanya nama dia pun........ Sa cuma mo tengok muka dia balik... Sa mo tenung dia and pegang tangan dia balik... =(

Time sa terbangun, sa betul2 masih ingat muka dia oh.... Tapi hati sa betul2 berdebar time terbangun tidur.... Sa cuma mau tau nama dia... Siapa nama dia ar....??? I really want to meet dia balik.... to say that I really like that person... Kalau sa terjumpa dia real life memang sa akan tegur tu urang. sa akan cerita dia pasal mimpi sa oh... hooohohohooo... tu lah mimpi sa....

apa erti mimpi sa ni ar....???  Mmmmmmm....