I feel so fucked up. 

I do not want to care. The more you care the more the way would try to find ways to hurt you. 

Time

Time... Heal me, I ask of you... 

The funniest reason ever... Wow... Just Wow... 

Wow.. This is so wrong... This preeching is so messed up

It's going to get a little messy

This is going to be so messed up. But I don't mind. It is what I intend to do anyway. 

Different.

I guess we're a little bit different. 

Terdalam..

Yang terdalam - The deepest - fear, happiness or anything alike that you revealed to someone you like so much, which then makes you to feel so nude and insecure that it might be used to tear you apart in times to come..

Facebook Timeline

Ok here's the deal...

Open your Facebook account and go to your own profile wall. Click 2013 and below posts. Now, read them. 

You will find how immature and childish you were even how matured you thought you were when you posted those things!

I actually laughed out loud reading all the posts I had published on my Facebook wall in 2007-2012! Lol. Goodness.. Was it really me? Hahaa.. So funny lah. I almost can't believe it that I posted those stuffs. 

But yeah.. It was amazing.. I was so innocent. Wow.. How cool is to actually get to know your innocent self back then.  I guess, Facebook has its "good" use anyhow.

It's like an album of pictures with descriptions of your life. It records what you were doing and all the memories you had. Good to know mine. It was... Sweet. :)

It keeps on playing in my mind. 

Fcked up.

Never been so fucked up like now. 

Emotional Struggle

Compared with physical challenges, emotional struggle is more burdening and draining for a man.

Being a growing young adult is one of the toughest things to be trust me.

Way off from original plan

As what I have always thought that things has never actually go my way.. it is always goes off the course that I want it to be.

So many things to be said and done with so little time.. it is pulling down my spirit draining me bit by bit.

So many things

There so many things to do and things to say..

Too good relationship with Bos

I tried to avoid but... I just got involved deeper with my bos. I don't know... But what my friend ever told me before, that it is better not to be emotionally and mentally attached to your superior is true.. because it'll be harder for you to loose off from them. .

The more I get involved with my bos personal life the more harder it feels to get off from his hand.. but this evening... he was asking for my opinion about his family issue. And it turned out to be an emotional moment. Oh gosh... now I have to give a very very very strong excuse if one day I really am determine to leave for the better.

Oh bosku... kanapa lah begini ni... adoiii...

They are all Doctors now

So.. another batch of my friends graduating in general medical.

Adoi... So everyone is becoming a doctor now. I cant believe time runs so fast in no time everything and everyone is just not the same.

What about me. What Am I gonna do next. For sure I am still here in this company. But will I ever pursue what I had hope before? To get degree of engineering. I put away everything aside when I decided to do so last time.

But now it seems my course has change so much and I am no way in that road of what I had planned. Plans never have worked in my life before anyway. Things are just not going according to what I have always wanted it to be. Guess it is true that we plan but God decides what to be.

Anyway. Another thing way off from the main topic. 

A picture that crafted a smile on my face.

Saw an old picture in my phone of a long lost friend and it had me laughing. Hahaa.. What a great smile! Hahaa.. wondering his whereabout and hoping he is doing all great.. hahaa..

Many Things..

Just many things running in my mind now.

Too many I don't know where to start.

Wrong Move.

Wrong move John... wrong move...

Aiyo... i cant believe I got a hair cut like this. Lol. It looks so stupid. Looool

Now I look like an awesome retarded guy. Lol. *sigh

I guess I've gotta shampoo my hair with half of the shampoo bottle everyday to get my hair long really quick.

Gambate! Lol

In Time..

I wonder what would happen... when the time comes and imagination becomes reality.

I wonder what would we say... when we loved each other and later we find out that we don't.

I wonder what would it be and feel like... when all that we hope is broken into pieces we could never mend.

I wonder how would we live our lives... after such grave dissapoinment and guilts hunt us down.

I wonder would we be ever the same again... as sweetness has turn so sour.

Would we raise hope like we did before? Would we laugh as sincere as the heart truly is. Or is it just some beautiful crafted smiles with no happiness.

I wonder what would we be when the time comes... as imagination is never a reality.